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robingurl.livejournal.com posting in monaboyd Aug. 21st, 2004 08:16 pm)Title: Lust Makes People Evil
Author: Robin Gurl
Rating: R
Warnings: Torture, Dom not in his usual frame of mind, Whipping!
Summary: Dom's lust takes over and Elijah can only watch as Billy suffers.
Notes:...o_o this is very unlike me to write this kind but it's been in my head forever. This is prolly going to be major AU and I'm *not* happy with the ending...>_<...but everything else I'm kinda proud of.
Disclaimer:...I own no one.
Feedback: Sure. Critisism ok. Flaming not.
I helped Dom carry Billy into the room. Actually it was more like dragging him. I'm the smallest in our group and I'm not very strong. Why did Dom want me to do this? Hopefully to just help Billy to a bed and let what ever knocked him out wear off. I still haven't figured out what knocked him out. One minute he was laughing and joking with us the next he's complaining that he can't see very well and then blacks out right at the table.
Dom has this evil glint in his eyes and it scares me. Dom never looks evil..never. Not even during sex. Yes, I've had sex with him once or twice, but I'm in love with Orlando. Dommie is in love with someone else. Just wish I knew who. Who ever it is obviously isn't keen on being gay with him so Dom is stuck with being single.
I grunted and dropped Billy's body on the bed. I heard Dom growl and then yank my arm and push me away. "You can stay, but only if you promise me one thing." I gulp. Promises are not my forte. I always wind up getting in trouble with them. Because I can't break them. If I promise anyone anything then I keep it no matter what. After I nod Dom continues, "You can't help Billy at all until I'm done."
I crack a grin. Sounds like a practical joke. "Alright, damn Dom, what have you got planned this time??" I was eager to see what Billy was going to get. Their practical jokes were always hysterical to watch.
Billy groans before Dom can answer and sits up. Dom walks over and sits on the edge of the bed. Billy was very disgruntled. My eyes narrowed. "Dom, is he...ok?" Dom shushed me with one wave of his hand and I moved back into the corner of the room again being silent. I watched as Dom carressed Billy's hair and cheek. Then ever so discreetly I watch in horror as he ties Billy with leather bonds to the head of the bed.
Billy looks up at him with Pippinish green eyes. They are so trusting of Dom, of Merry. I silently move closer worried what Dom is going to do. Sometimes practical jokes get carried away but Dom knows when to stop, right? Right now though, this isn't playing like a practical joke. This is something different and much more serious.
"Pippin sweetie, look at me."
Billy obeys obediently and looks up at Dom. Dom smiles and leans down kissing Billy on the lips. Just when he pulls away he bites into Billy's bottom lip. Billy whimpers and tries to pull away. My hands go to my mouth in shock as blood runs down Billy's chin. He moans in pain and whimpers as Dom's teeth tear into his skin. "DOM!"
Dom pulls away and turns around. "What did I tell you about not interrupting?" His glare freezes me in my spot and I nod silently. After making sure I'm quiet he bites Billy's neck. I grit my teeth. Why did I have to make a promise. "Does this hurt Billy? Does it?" Tears trickle down Billy's cheeks and he whispers yes. Dom, please stop this!! I shout silently. Why are you hurting your Pippin?
"You've been a very bad Pippin." Dom shouted in his Merry voice. I watched as Billy winced and turned his head. Billy's body started to tremble and I backed myself up against the wall scared. Dom smiled at me in an evil way, "What's wrong, 'lijah? I won't hurt you..you haven't been bad."
"I..I'm sorry Merry..I didn't mean to.." Billy whispers. He's close to sobbing. "Merry!!" He shoutes as Dom bites one of his nipples hard. I wince in pain and feel tears form in my eyes. "Merry, please...Meerrry!!" Dom pulls away and licks the blood from his lips. Billy falls back agaisnt the pillow breathing hard. His green eyes are still clouded.
"Does it hurt?" Billy nods whimpering. Blood is still running down his chin from his lip. "Good. About time you felt pain like I have. You bastard, going off with that bitch when you knew I loved you." Billy's eyes grow wide. "Merry you always were my number one..." Dom shakes his head and grips Billy's arm hard. His hand is much bigger than Billy's arm. I hold myself back looking to the floor unable to watch.
Hearing it was worse. Billy kept screaming for help and Dom kept doing things to do him. So Billy was the one. Billy was the one that Dom loved and wanted. Billy was the one who had caused Dom pain.
But why would Dom want to hurt his Pippin. He loved his Pippin.
I looked up when Dom called my name. He had Billy's neck chained to the bed as well. Billy's cheeks were stained with tears and more tears fell from my eyes as I watched our Pippin whisper for help. "Ye..yes Dom?"
"Hand me that whip over beside you. I think Billy needs to be taught a lesson." I took a shakey breath and my eyes catch sight of the whip. I weakly grab it and hand it to him unwillingly.
I closed my eyes unable to watch. I wish I had closed my ears. The crack of the whip sounded through my ears and I heard Billy cry out mercilessly. I collapsed to my knees feeling helpless. It kept hitting him and he was unable to stop it. I started to sob. "Dom!! STOP THIS!! PLEASE!!" I shout from the floor clenching my fists. Billy sobbing hanging limply from his bonds.
I want to go over and hug him.
Hug my Pippin. Dom's Pippin. Reassure him that everything is ok. But I can't. I promised Dom I wouldn't move. But my body is screaming for me to throw Dom out of the way. Should I at least try to reason with him?
I take a deep breath and crawl over to him. "Dommie. Please...s..stop. You're hurting you're Pippin.." Dom looks to me with emotionless blue eyes. I gasped and drew away immediately. I knew there was no stopping him now..but I had to keep trying. I had to reach Dom before he killed Billy...before he killed Pippin.
"You love him Dommie. Don't you remember all of those times you took care of him? You love Pippin. He's your Pippin."
My last sentence runs through his head. I can see it clearly on his face. Emotions are playing across his features at an alarming speed. His hands are shaking and suddenly tears fall. Billy whimpers and moans against his bonds. He weakly moves his legs and the jean material scrapes across his thighs where the whip hit. His damaged button down shirt, Dom's favorite shirt, is tattered. I can see the whip marks shining through the slashes in the material.
"Dommie?" I stand trembling myself. I walk over and place a hand on Dom's shoulder. "Dommie?" Dom turns his head slightly and I see a torrent of tears are still streaming down. "Dommie, what is wrong?"
"How would you understand?" He snaps pushing me away. I fall backwards and watches as he stands leaving Billy to suffer on the bed. "You've got your lover."
I carefully choose my next words knowing this was a critical time. It was a life or death situation. If I said the wrong thing then it could cost Billy his life. I don't think he'll survive another whipping..
"You are right. I've been lucky, Dom.." More tears fall and I wrap my arms around myself. "But...you haven't. Is that why you hurt Billy? To try and get back at him for what he did to you? Is it Dom? You had to hurt your Pippin to feel better?"
I hear Dom make a noise and then collapse beside the window on his knees. "God Damn It!" He shoutes banging his hand into the concrete Window Sill. I hear him start to sob and he punches the window sill again.
Billy goes motionless and run over to him making sure he's alive. Thankfully he just blacked out at least he'd be out of pain. I turned back to Dom angry, "Fuck, Dom! Why couldn't you just fucking talk to him?"
"Like he'd of listened." Dom roared standing. "Elijah you can't say one bloody word. You've watched what he did to me. Made a fool of me in front of the whole fucking world."
"I did." I reply calmly crossing my arms. "But did he deserve to be beaten by the one person he trusted just for that?" Dom didn't know Billy's past like he thought he did. He'd never sit down and listen long enough for Billy to tell it. Now was when I wish he had let Billy tell him. "Dom, you just made one of the biggest mistakes of your life." I whisper.
"Why what did I do? I already made the biggest mistake in my life, Elijah. I fell in love with a man who doesn't love me back. I wasted four years of my fucking life trying to win him over. Everything was for Billy. For my Pippin. And I'll be damned if I don't deserve some sympathy."
"You deserved sympathy until you beat him senseless for no reason." I shot back. "Right now you deserve nothing but to suffer alone and never see the damn light again, you prick." I sit on the edge of the bed and with my shaking hands I untied Billy. His limp arms fell heavily on the bed and his head crashed onto the small pillow. I cradled Billy's head in my lap.
"He'll come back, Dom. He'll come back for more."
"Anyone in their right mind wouldn't come back for more, Elijah. How fucking blind are you? If I had a chance with him it's gone now." Dom muttered leaning his head on the wall.
I bite my lip. Should I tell Dom the secret between Billy and Allie? "Billy isn't dating Allie, Dom."
Dom looks over to me, "What?" His look tells me that he thinks I'm crazy.
I take another deep breath. I had promised that I'd never tell...but well, I had to. "Dom, Allie, she is Lesbian. They are *pretending* to date so girls will stop pairing you two together." I look down at Billy's face and wipe some tears away. "If you had given him one more fucking day, he would have told you. But you never gave him a chance."
"Shit! Shit! Shit!" Dom continues to curse and starts to pace. I see tears streaming down his face. It looks like he just realizes what the hell he just did to Billy. About time, the prick. Billy moans and his eyes flutter open. His green eyes are feverish with pain but the drug has worn off. He looks around questionally then tries to speak, "El..Elijah..what in hell happened?" I bite my lip smiling down at him with watery eyes as he remembers.
This right here is why Merry always cares for Pippin and never hurts Pippin. Why Merry cuddles with Pippin, loves Pippin. Shoutes at people for hurting Pippin.
It's those God Damn tears.
Billy sits up and falls into me and starts to sob. I hold his trembling body and rub his back. I don't know what to say. He obviously doesn't see Dom. "..'lijah, I should have told Domme..or at least told Allie no." I nod spilling more tears. I look over his head to see Dom standing over us. Billy's sobs are loud and I can see that they are affecting Dom immediately. A change comes over him. I watch as his features soften to a Merry look. I see his heart break right in front of my eyes. I watch him reach forward to touch Billy. "Pippy..."
Billy pulls away and stares silently at Dom. Pippin leaps into Merry's arms and knocks them to the ground. It's like watching one of the fan's fanfics come to life. "Merry, I'm sorry...I'm sorry."
I silently watch as Dom cradles Billy close. "Be quiet. You have nothing to be sorry about. It was my fault.."
"I do." Billy sobbed in Dom's shoulder, "You...You...said I was a bad hobbit..."
Tears spill down Dom's cheeks and he kisses Billy's hair rocking him. "You've never..never..been a ...ba..bad hobbit.." He chokes on a sob. "You're my sweet Pippin...you're perfect." I look on hopefully hoping all will be forgiven. Even though Billy should slap Dom one good and then leave, he's not going to. Billy loves Dom. Pippin loves Merry.
To my delight Dom kisses Billy and rubs his back. I turn away, this is not my place to watch.
"I love you, Billy, my sweet Billy." I hear Dom whisper.
I turn back around and watch as Billy winces in pain. Dom blinks more tears away and nods at me, "We've got to get these cleaned up.."
I shake my head walking out. I don't understand these two, but what ever. I hear Dom coddling Billy and soothing him apologizing for everything. I wonder how everything is going to go in the morning? That'll be another story I'm sure. We'll have to wait and see. I wonder if Sean and Orli will believe me if I told them what happened? Naw.
Author: Robin Gurl
Rating: R
Warnings: Torture, Dom not in his usual frame of mind, Whipping!
Summary: Dom's lust takes over and Elijah can only watch as Billy suffers.
Notes:...o_o this is very unlike me to write this kind but it's been in my head forever. This is prolly going to be major AU and I'm *not* happy with the ending...>_<...but everything else I'm kinda proud of.
Disclaimer:...I own no one.
Feedback: Sure. Critisism ok. Flaming not.
I helped Dom carry Billy into the room. Actually it was more like dragging him. I'm the smallest in our group and I'm not very strong. Why did Dom want me to do this? Hopefully to just help Billy to a bed and let what ever knocked him out wear off. I still haven't figured out what knocked him out. One minute he was laughing and joking with us the next he's complaining that he can't see very well and then blacks out right at the table.
Dom has this evil glint in his eyes and it scares me. Dom never looks evil..never. Not even during sex. Yes, I've had sex with him once or twice, but I'm in love with Orlando. Dommie is in love with someone else. Just wish I knew who. Who ever it is obviously isn't keen on being gay with him so Dom is stuck with being single.
I grunted and dropped Billy's body on the bed. I heard Dom growl and then yank my arm and push me away. "You can stay, but only if you promise me one thing." I gulp. Promises are not my forte. I always wind up getting in trouble with them. Because I can't break them. If I promise anyone anything then I keep it no matter what. After I nod Dom continues, "You can't help Billy at all until I'm done."
I crack a grin. Sounds like a practical joke. "Alright, damn Dom, what have you got planned this time??" I was eager to see what Billy was going to get. Their practical jokes were always hysterical to watch.
Billy groans before Dom can answer and sits up. Dom walks over and sits on the edge of the bed. Billy was very disgruntled. My eyes narrowed. "Dom, is he...ok?" Dom shushed me with one wave of his hand and I moved back into the corner of the room again being silent. I watched as Dom carressed Billy's hair and cheek. Then ever so discreetly I watch in horror as he ties Billy with leather bonds to the head of the bed.
Billy looks up at him with Pippinish green eyes. They are so trusting of Dom, of Merry. I silently move closer worried what Dom is going to do. Sometimes practical jokes get carried away but Dom knows when to stop, right? Right now though, this isn't playing like a practical joke. This is something different and much more serious.
"Pippin sweetie, look at me."
Billy obeys obediently and looks up at Dom. Dom smiles and leans down kissing Billy on the lips. Just when he pulls away he bites into Billy's bottom lip. Billy whimpers and tries to pull away. My hands go to my mouth in shock as blood runs down Billy's chin. He moans in pain and whimpers as Dom's teeth tear into his skin. "DOM!"
Dom pulls away and turns around. "What did I tell you about not interrupting?" His glare freezes me in my spot and I nod silently. After making sure I'm quiet he bites Billy's neck. I grit my teeth. Why did I have to make a promise. "Does this hurt Billy? Does it?" Tears trickle down Billy's cheeks and he whispers yes. Dom, please stop this!! I shout silently. Why are you hurting your Pippin?
"You've been a very bad Pippin." Dom shouted in his Merry voice. I watched as Billy winced and turned his head. Billy's body started to tremble and I backed myself up against the wall scared. Dom smiled at me in an evil way, "What's wrong, 'lijah? I won't hurt you..you haven't been bad."
"I..I'm sorry Merry..I didn't mean to.." Billy whispers. He's close to sobbing. "Merry!!" He shoutes as Dom bites one of his nipples hard. I wince in pain and feel tears form in my eyes. "Merry, please...Meerrry!!" Dom pulls away and licks the blood from his lips. Billy falls back agaisnt the pillow breathing hard. His green eyes are still clouded.
"Does it hurt?" Billy nods whimpering. Blood is still running down his chin from his lip. "Good. About time you felt pain like I have. You bastard, going off with that bitch when you knew I loved you." Billy's eyes grow wide. "Merry you always were my number one..." Dom shakes his head and grips Billy's arm hard. His hand is much bigger than Billy's arm. I hold myself back looking to the floor unable to watch.
Hearing it was worse. Billy kept screaming for help and Dom kept doing things to do him. So Billy was the one. Billy was the one that Dom loved and wanted. Billy was the one who had caused Dom pain.
But why would Dom want to hurt his Pippin. He loved his Pippin.
I looked up when Dom called my name. He had Billy's neck chained to the bed as well. Billy's cheeks were stained with tears and more tears fell from my eyes as I watched our Pippin whisper for help. "Ye..yes Dom?"
"Hand me that whip over beside you. I think Billy needs to be taught a lesson." I took a shakey breath and my eyes catch sight of the whip. I weakly grab it and hand it to him unwillingly.
I closed my eyes unable to watch. I wish I had closed my ears. The crack of the whip sounded through my ears and I heard Billy cry out mercilessly. I collapsed to my knees feeling helpless. It kept hitting him and he was unable to stop it. I started to sob. "Dom!! STOP THIS!! PLEASE!!" I shout from the floor clenching my fists. Billy sobbing hanging limply from his bonds.
I want to go over and hug him.
Hug my Pippin. Dom's Pippin. Reassure him that everything is ok. But I can't. I promised Dom I wouldn't move. But my body is screaming for me to throw Dom out of the way. Should I at least try to reason with him?
I take a deep breath and crawl over to him. "Dommie. Please...s..stop. You're hurting you're Pippin.." Dom looks to me with emotionless blue eyes. I gasped and drew away immediately. I knew there was no stopping him now..but I had to keep trying. I had to reach Dom before he killed Billy...before he killed Pippin.
"You love him Dommie. Don't you remember all of those times you took care of him? You love Pippin. He's your Pippin."
My last sentence runs through his head. I can see it clearly on his face. Emotions are playing across his features at an alarming speed. His hands are shaking and suddenly tears fall. Billy whimpers and moans against his bonds. He weakly moves his legs and the jean material scrapes across his thighs where the whip hit. His damaged button down shirt, Dom's favorite shirt, is tattered. I can see the whip marks shining through the slashes in the material.
"Dommie?" I stand trembling myself. I walk over and place a hand on Dom's shoulder. "Dommie?" Dom turns his head slightly and I see a torrent of tears are still streaming down. "Dommie, what is wrong?"
"How would you understand?" He snaps pushing me away. I fall backwards and watches as he stands leaving Billy to suffer on the bed. "You've got your lover."
I carefully choose my next words knowing this was a critical time. It was a life or death situation. If I said the wrong thing then it could cost Billy his life. I don't think he'll survive another whipping..
"You are right. I've been lucky, Dom.." More tears fall and I wrap my arms around myself. "But...you haven't. Is that why you hurt Billy? To try and get back at him for what he did to you? Is it Dom? You had to hurt your Pippin to feel better?"
I hear Dom make a noise and then collapse beside the window on his knees. "God Damn It!" He shoutes banging his hand into the concrete Window Sill. I hear him start to sob and he punches the window sill again.
Billy goes motionless and run over to him making sure he's alive. Thankfully he just blacked out at least he'd be out of pain. I turned back to Dom angry, "Fuck, Dom! Why couldn't you just fucking talk to him?"
"Like he'd of listened." Dom roared standing. "Elijah you can't say one bloody word. You've watched what he did to me. Made a fool of me in front of the whole fucking world."
"I did." I reply calmly crossing my arms. "But did he deserve to be beaten by the one person he trusted just for that?" Dom didn't know Billy's past like he thought he did. He'd never sit down and listen long enough for Billy to tell it. Now was when I wish he had let Billy tell him. "Dom, you just made one of the biggest mistakes of your life." I whisper.
"Why what did I do? I already made the biggest mistake in my life, Elijah. I fell in love with a man who doesn't love me back. I wasted four years of my fucking life trying to win him over. Everything was for Billy. For my Pippin. And I'll be damned if I don't deserve some sympathy."
"You deserved sympathy until you beat him senseless for no reason." I shot back. "Right now you deserve nothing but to suffer alone and never see the damn light again, you prick." I sit on the edge of the bed and with my shaking hands I untied Billy. His limp arms fell heavily on the bed and his head crashed onto the small pillow. I cradled Billy's head in my lap.
"He'll come back, Dom. He'll come back for more."
"Anyone in their right mind wouldn't come back for more, Elijah. How fucking blind are you? If I had a chance with him it's gone now." Dom muttered leaning his head on the wall.
I bite my lip. Should I tell Dom the secret between Billy and Allie? "Billy isn't dating Allie, Dom."
Dom looks over to me, "What?" His look tells me that he thinks I'm crazy.
I take another deep breath. I had promised that I'd never tell...but well, I had to. "Dom, Allie, she is Lesbian. They are *pretending* to date so girls will stop pairing you two together." I look down at Billy's face and wipe some tears away. "If you had given him one more fucking day, he would have told you. But you never gave him a chance."
"Shit! Shit! Shit!" Dom continues to curse and starts to pace. I see tears streaming down his face. It looks like he just realizes what the hell he just did to Billy. About time, the prick. Billy moans and his eyes flutter open. His green eyes are feverish with pain but the drug has worn off. He looks around questionally then tries to speak, "El..Elijah..what in hell happened?" I bite my lip smiling down at him with watery eyes as he remembers.
This right here is why Merry always cares for Pippin and never hurts Pippin. Why Merry cuddles with Pippin, loves Pippin. Shoutes at people for hurting Pippin.
It's those God Damn tears.
Billy sits up and falls into me and starts to sob. I hold his trembling body and rub his back. I don't know what to say. He obviously doesn't see Dom. "..'lijah, I should have told Domme..or at least told Allie no." I nod spilling more tears. I look over his head to see Dom standing over us. Billy's sobs are loud and I can see that they are affecting Dom immediately. A change comes over him. I watch as his features soften to a Merry look. I see his heart break right in front of my eyes. I watch him reach forward to touch Billy. "Pippy..."
Billy pulls away and stares silently at Dom. Pippin leaps into Merry's arms and knocks them to the ground. It's like watching one of the fan's fanfics come to life. "Merry, I'm sorry...I'm sorry."
I silently watch as Dom cradles Billy close. "Be quiet. You have nothing to be sorry about. It was my fault.."
"I do." Billy sobbed in Dom's shoulder, "You...You...said I was a bad hobbit..."
Tears spill down Dom's cheeks and he kisses Billy's hair rocking him. "You've never..never..been a ...ba..bad hobbit.." He chokes on a sob. "You're my sweet Pippin...you're perfect." I look on hopefully hoping all will be forgiven. Even though Billy should slap Dom one good and then leave, he's not going to. Billy loves Dom. Pippin loves Merry.
To my delight Dom kisses Billy and rubs his back. I turn away, this is not my place to watch.
"I love you, Billy, my sweet Billy." I hear Dom whisper.
I turn back around and watch as Billy winces in pain. Dom blinks more tears away and nods at me, "We've got to get these cleaned up.."
I shake my head walking out. I don't understand these two, but what ever. I hear Dom coddling Billy and soothing him apologizing for everything. I wonder how everything is going to go in the morning? That'll be another story I'm sure. We'll have to wait and see. I wonder if Sean and Orli will believe me if I told them what happened? Naw.
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*tries to figure out what to change and work on* So maybe if I make it third person and kick Elijah out? Then go on with the raping???
Sorry, I've had this idea for a full year now in my head and I don't want to throw it away I want to turn into *something* no matter how miniscule it is..
Thanks for helping!
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It also needs a huge amount of work on the characterisation. The reactions of everyone involved just don't work at all, and read as terribly unrealistic.
Rapefic is something that only a very few people can write- it needs a huge amount of research, work, sensitivity and writing talent. To post a rapefic riddled with grammar errors and unrealistic characterisation leaves a nasty taste in the mouth of the reader, and it feels almost as if it is a trivialisation of the issue of rape.
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yeh this one was a hard fic to write..o_o...and I'm not as pleased as I hoped I'd be. But that's ok. I can learn and try and write better.
It was like all planned out in my head..and when I put it on paper everything fell apart..any ideas on what went wrong???
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Get a good beta and start again from scratch. A really good, harsh beta, not just a friend correcting a couple of typos and urging you to post.
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gross.
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...and the story does need help. I would follow the advice already posted.
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*bangs your head against those words rather hard*
You're the one whose internet should be disconnected. Leave my friend alone. She's worth ten of you.
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I'm here to help!
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here's something to bang your own head on.
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criticism = not flaming someone one their bloody journal.
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I'm here to help!
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