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Author: smlark
Pairing: Monaboyd
Rating: PG-13 (Language)
Summary: Dom is tired of waiting and asks Billy for a favor.
Feedback: Yes please, but be gentle - it's my first time!
Disclaimer: Just random thoughts running through my head while I was bored - all totally made up.
Author’s Notes: My many thanks go out to
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hobbitgwen and to darthemly for their quick and constructive Beta skills! Any final mistakes I claim as my own.Previous parts can be found here:
Part 1-Part 2-Part 3-Part 4
The Favor
(Part 5/6)
"Please, let me explain." I began quietly. "I'll give it all up. All my hopes and dreams of you ever loving me like that. I'll never think of you in anyway other than as my very best mate. I'll stop looking longingly at you every time you enter a room. I'll stop inhaling your scent off your pillow after you leave. I'll stop grinning like a Cheshire cat when you hug me. I'll stop adoring you from afar when you aren't near me. I will, I promise, try very, very hard to stop loving you with all my heart and soul. I promise I'll try to get up every morning and not begin my day with thoughts of you. I promise I'll try to get on with my life and find someone who will love me like that." I was sobbing now, tears overflowing my eyes.
No! It wasn't suppose to be like this, I wasn't going to beg! But it hurt so much, it was like giving up my right arm. I didn't know how I could follow through with these promises. I love him so much. One night, surely it would be worth it all for just one night with him! I was still looking at Billy, tears falling from my chin onto my shirt. Billy was visibly shaking now. Was he crying too? I didn't know, his head was down so I couldn't tell.
"Billy, can’t you please pretend for just one night that you love me like that? That's my favor."
Still nothing from Billy, so I continued. "Can’t you close your eyes and pretend I was someone else, anyone else - pretend I’m Ali. I don’t care, just love me unconditionally for one night, please?" I sobbed. Still Billy didn't speak or move. The silence threatened to smother me. Someone had to speak. I couldn’t take this anymore.
"Billy?" I put my hand on his shoulder and shook him gently. "Billy, please say something. Say yes. Say no. Tell me to go to Hell, just speak to me, please!"
"Alright." Billy said in a monotone voice as he looked up at me. "Alright, fine Dom. I said I would do anything for you and I meant it. If this is what you want, I’ll do it." I could see his face now and he too had tears shimmering in his eyes.
God, this isn't what I wanted. I didn’t expect him to exactly jump for joy at the idea, but I didn’t want him looking like he was heading for the gallows either. No, I can’t do this. I can’t make him do this. That's how good of a mate he is - he would do something for me that he was completely against just because I asked.
I covered my face with my hands, shook my head muttering "No, no, no", over and over again. If Billy heard me, he didn’t comment.
With a sigh I stood up. "You know what Bills?" I asked. "You agreeing to do this for me makes me realize that it's not worth the risk of losing you as my mate. So please, just forget about it. Just pretend I never asked." I let out another heavy sigh and walked towards the door.
I was grasping the handle when I heard Billy shout, "Dominic Monaghan don’t you dare walk out of this room! Get your arse back over here right now!" I paused from turning the door handle but didn't move. "NOW!" Billy screamed. I turned and looked at him. He had stood up but otherwise hadn't moved from his spot at the sofa. His cheeks were a deep pink and his green eyes were blazing into me.
"Um, okay Billy, just calm down." I said hesitantly and walked back to the sofa and sat beside him. I looked at Billy and got a little worried. The man was obviously ready to have some sort of a breakdown, his chest was literally heaving as he spoke.
"Calm down!" Billy said breathlessly as he sat down again. "Calm down! How do you expect me to calm down with what you just did to me?"
"What did I do to you? All I did was ask you for a favor. You haven’t done anything yet." I said.
"But I was going to!" stressed Billy, staring intently at me. "Do you know how much courage it took for me to say I would do it?"
"I do, Billy. I do and I really, really appreciate it. But I can’t let you, not knowing how you feel."
"You keep saying you know how I feel. Well Dom, I want to know what you think I feel. Go on, tell me. How do I feel?" Billy asked.
"Come on Billy, I know you're straight. I know you're with Ali. I know you've never thought of me in any way other than as a best mate." My voice lowered as I tried to break Billy’s gaze but it was just too intense, I was imprisoned by it.
"How do you know this Dom. How do you really know? Have you ever asked me? No, you just assumed. Well you know what they say happens when you assume, don’t you Dommie?" Billy asked as he leaned in towards me, a biting sarcasm in his voice.
"Right Bills, I make an ass out of you and me…old joke, you need some new material." I said with a hint of a smile, trying to make light of the situation. Falling back on the old Dom’n Billy show always puts me at ease.
"Well, from one ass to another, we have to finish what we started here tonight, Dommie, or we’ll forever have it between us." Billy said resolutely.
"I know Billy, I know. It’s just…it’s going to be hard." I said shaking my head. There was a pause before I heard Billy start to giggle.
"What?" I asked looking puzzled. "What’s so funny?" suddenly, the penny dropped. "Fuck you Boyd!" I laughed as I tenderly punched Billy's arm.
"Exactly!" Billy smiled mischievously, "Isn’t that what this favor is all about?"
I leaned back on the sofa and smiling fully and completely for the first time that evening. "Yeah, yeah, it is…so Bills, let’s talk."
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I am also picky.
Will go back and read other parts.
That means I loved this part btw.
umm. What? Why?
Think it's because I always want to ask for that. just one night. one time. like it will solve something. like you can kiss it away. doesn't work. and you want to take it back the second you've let yourself ask. but you ask anyway. and wait. and despair.
That must have taken courage to write.
Claps, standing ovation, encore.
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Thank you very much!
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Can't wait for the next part, by the way! :)
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Oh good work just me being slow on the up take.
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Dylan
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-- Malin
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xxx
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*flails* Love this and need the finale! *huggles*