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Title: Goodbye.
Author: aranel_x
Rating: PG for angst
Summary: Billy has no choice but to leave Dom...
Warnings: Lots of angst.
Disclaimer: All lies :(
Feedback: Would be appreciated.
Note: This is my first time posting a fic so be gentle :P

They broke the kiss and Dom looked deep into Billy’s eyes. There was an unbearable longing there, which ripped mercilessly at his soul. Dom knew this look, and wanted to do something, anything , to make it go away, but this time he knew he couldn’t.

“Don’t cry Dom…” Billy wrapped his arms around the taller mans waist. He felt Dom’s tears soaking through his shirt. It killed him to see him like this…

Dom wanted Billy to understand that he never wanted anything else, he was his world. What would happen to their walks in the autumn, when Billy would kick up leaves just to annoy Dom and then pull him down to roll amongst the gold, orange and red. The nights next to the fire, Billy’s fingers in his hair, his lips soft and urgent on his own. Lying out on the grass when they went camping, only to fall asleep under the stars in each others arms… He would miss Billy laughing out loud to humorous parts in his book and then trying and failing to read them to Dom. He would miss waking up next to his naked form and staying in bed just to stay close to him for a few extra minutes…

“Billy…” Dom choked, “You can’t…Billy….I love you…”

Billy closed his eyes in agony. He knew Dom loved him, and he loved him back, but he had to do this. He didn’t know why, but he did. This was important. How would it look if he didn’t?

“I know, Dom, I know. But I have to… I have to…”

“I can’t live without you…”

Dom collapsed on the floor, sobbing forcefully until his back trembled. Hot tears poured down Billy’s face as he watched his lover and best friend break his heart at his feet. No. He was breaking Dom’s heart - and he hated himself for it. He crouched down next to him and held him and cried. They cried and cried in each other arms until their eyes stung and their throats were raw.

“Dom, listen to me. Before I go, I want you to know that I love you, I always have and I always will. I will never love anyone as much as I love you. This is killing me Dom, my heart is in pieces. You’re beautiful and witty and funny and lovely and I’ll never find anyone who will ever be half the person you are. If I ever see you again…I’ll still love you. Even if it’s ten years from now.” Billy paused as a wave of tears took over him, but continued again, “Never stop loving me Dom, because I’ll never stop loving you.”

Dom sniffed and kissed Billy, hot and wet, on the lips, “I love you too, Bills.”

***

Ten minutes later, Billy boarded his train and let it carry him up to Scotland. He thought of Dom, lying there on their - his - apartment floor and crying his heart out. He looked out of the window and saw the world fly by, tears still falling down his cheeks. His world was gone. His heart was broken. And there was nothing he could do about it.

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Date: 2006-07-20 07:39 pm (UTC)

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Aww. *sniff* I've been needing something with a sad ending (I know, I'm very strange), and this fit the bill perfectly. I loved this part:

He looked out of the window and saw the world fly by, tears still falling down his cheeks. His world was gone. His heart was broken. And there was nothing he could do about it.

Yay for your first fic posted!!! Doesn't it feel great? :)