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Author: smlark
Pairing: Monaboyd
Rating: PG-13 (Language)
Summary: Dom is tired of waiting and asks Billy for a favor.
Feedback: Yes please, but be gentle - it's my first time!
Disclaimer: Just random thoughts running through my head while I was bored - all totally made up.
Author’s Notes: My many thanks go out to
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hobbitgwen and to darthemly for their quick and constructive Beta skills! Any final mistakes I claim as my own.Previous parts can be found here:
Part 1-Part 2-Part 3-Part 4-Part 5
(Part 6/6)
"First things first, Dom." stated Billy as he stood and walked towards the phone. He dialed room service and asked them to send up a bottle of their best malt whiskey.
After hanging up, Billy turned to me and said "Nothing but the best for you my dear Bills! I believe that’s what you said to me Dommie, right?" Billy walked closer to me, leaned down into my face and taunted, "Cans Dom, cans are the best?"
I felt myself blushing, heat rising to my cheeks. Looking sheepishly at him I said "That’s all they had cold at the store, sorry." I glanced down at the carpet trying to avoid Billy’s eyes. What I neglected to mention was that I forgot the beer in my preoccupation with this mission and stopped at the small convenience store on the corner nearest the hotel when I remembered.
"You’ve got to get a man good an proper drunk if your gonna hit him with something like this Dom. Haven’t ya learned anything from me after all the time we’ve been together?" Billy lectured lightheartedly.
I froze, did he just say what I thought he said? Did he just say "after all the time we’ve been together?" I’ve said that before, in interviews and when talking to people. I’ve said that Billy and I have been together now for…and filled it in with the appropriate block of time. Billy though, to my knowledge, has never said that we’ve been "together". It’s always been "we’ve been friends now for…" or "we’ve been best mates going on…" but not "together". I looked up questioningly at him.
Billy’s face had taken on a more serious expression. "Dom," he started as he held my gaze. "I want to tell you a story. It’s a story about a man, no make that two men. Two men who met years ago and became fast everything together, everything that two people could be to each other. Each part of their relationship didn't develop slowly over time, like what happens to most people. No, these two men developed a fast and intense relationship in everything they were to each other."
Billy stopped, opened the last can of beer and downed nearly half of it before coming up for air. It was so quiet in the room that I could hear him swallow.
Engrossed as I was in watching him do this, I wanted him to continue with the story, now! "Go on, please!" I begged.
Billy sighed and shook his head slightly. "See, that‘s just it, there is never a pause with us, never a time to contemplate or reflect. People need that Dom, I need that. That doesn’t necessarily mean I’m not ready to move on, it just means what it means, a break, a hiatus if you will. You can understand that, can’t you Dom?"
I frowned slightly at Billy now. I was still a little confused as to what Billy meant by all of this.
"Billy, please, what are you trying to say?" I pleaded.
"What I am trying to say Dom, is that I do love you…like that." Billy said a little shyly now. "I think I have for a very long time."
I leaned forward, my knees touching Billy’s as I reached over and grasped his hands with both of mine, but I remained silent. My heart was beating fast now, filling with hope, desire, wonder and amazement. I mentally tried to convey all of these feelings to Billy, not wanting to interrupt him. I needed to hear more!
Billy, staring into my eyes, took a deep breath and continued softly, "Dom, I realized that when we had those moments - you know, when our eyes locked and it seemed as if no one else was in the room but you and I, those moments were so intense they frightened me. I knew what I was feeling was not something co-workers, best mates, or brothers should feel for one another. Look, there it is again, right now, the way you're looking at me this very moment!" exclaimed Billy, his voice raising slightly.
I tried not to let my concern show. I broke eye contact with him and looked down at our hands clasps together in his lap. I wasn’t looking at Billy's..., no I was looking at our hands. I can't help that our hands were close to Billy’s…
"Dom, please look at me, don’t be upset." Billy’s voice forced me to look up. This time I saw what I was longing for, what I desperately needed to see...I saw love and affection in those sparkling green eyes.
"I’ve never been in love with a man before Dom," Billy said timidly. "I didn’t know what to do with that. I wasn’t sure if it was something I could handle. Would my sister hate me? Would my career be ruined? Would you hate me? I wasn’t even sure how you felt Dom. You never said anything. I think I believed it, or at least wanted to believe it at times, but it just wasn’t worth the risk of losing everything, of losing you." Billy said as he leaned in towards me.
"God Billy," I said with a sigh, "I don’t know what to say. I really though you knew how I felt. You never gave me any indication that you felt the same way. Then there was Ali and all. How was I suppose to know?"
"Guess we’ve both been pretty stupid," said Billy. "I love Ali, as a friend and if you weren't in my life, maybe that could have progressed into something. Right now though, there's only you and there will be only you. I’ve tried to put my concerns in their proper place and keep my feelings for you locked away in my heart. But you know what? Every time I talked to you, every time I saw you, my heart filled more and more until it was near bursting with nothing but my love for you. I can’t and don’t want to imagine my life without you in it. I love you so much Dom!" Billy voiced cracked slightly as he said this.
"But Bills, I don't understand," I said hesitantly. "If you truly feel the same way, if you really love me, then why did you seem so upset when I asked you for this favor tonight?"
"Oh Dommie, its just, I thought, I mean I guess I was just scared," said Billy. "As soon as you asked me, I knew that tonight, the next level of our relationship would begin and I wasn't sure I was ready. I wasn’t sure I was strong enough to face the consequences, yet I knew that I'd have to sooner or later. There was no way I was going to give you up, Dom. This, us together, was bound to happen. We were heading for it full steam ahead, nothing could have stopped it. Just like the rest of our relationship, it was just a matter of time." Tears were forming anew in Billy’s eyes as he held on fast to my hands.
"Bills, please don’t…" I pulled one hand free and gently stroked his cheek. "Don’t be afraid. Our relationship has survived an ocean between us. We can face any of those other challenges - together." I moved forward on the sofa, my face a mere inch or two away from his.
Billy's eyes, like pools of liquid emeralds, held me fast.
Is that his heart I hear beating or mine?
"I think I'm ready Dommie." Billy whispered, breaking the spell. "I think I'm ready to love you - like that."
Their lips met, moving gently at first, exploring this new territory. Their tongues visiting those sweet dark places only lovers can discover. Soon, very soon, hesitation and shyness grew into intensity and desire. All the years of yearning overtook them.
Passion enveloped them.
Love completed them.
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loved this bit...
Their lips met, moving gently at first, exploring this new territory. Their tongues visiting those sweet dark places only lovers can discover. Soon, very soon, hesitation and shyness grew into intensity and desire. All the years of yearning overtook them.
Passion enveloped them.
Love completed them.
Great way to end it.
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That was so beautiful. A perfect
endingbeginning.*bookmarks so it can be read over and over again*
Love completed them.
Awww . . . *sniff*
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Brilliant!
Great work!
-- Malin
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Oh, wow. What a vivid description of Billy's eyes...
Is that his heart I hear beating or mine?
I think I loved this line more than words can say. So very wonderful.
And what a great ending, as well! *snuggles**friends*
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Note: You are my first *friend* as I'm fairly new to LJ. I'm going to reciprocate if you don't mind.
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And of course I don't mind if you friend me back! *cuddles* I love getting new friends!
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