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scots-in-kilts.livejournal.com posting in monaboyd Aug. 12th, 2004 01:08 am)Title: Never Surrender
Rating: R (language)
Pairing: Monaboyd
Disclaimer: Don't own them or the songs
Summary: Regrats abound, but never he never surrendered
Author's Note: This is for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
booshgal33's monaboyd Angst challenge. Using the song "White Flag" Hope it works.
And thanks to my ever abused betaaire_blair
My Dear Dommie
My Dommie,
Dom,
Christ, if this isn’t a hard letter to write. I sit here, alone in my flat, thinking of you. Alone you wonder. How am I alone when I have a great girl like Ali? She left me, Dom.
I was in the car, driving home when it hit me. I still love you. Probably shouldn’t or even say it, but it’s true. I. Love. You. Even if I sat here, wrote this, and never said it out loud, I’d still feel that way, so why pretend anymore? I came home in tears, with my love for you all over my face and she left. She knew and I knew.
I’m not trying to ruin your life, make it harder than it is. I know things are going pretty good for you now. I’m not even trying to bring us back to what we once were.
I’m willing to stay here, in Scotland, deal with my choice, my decision. I chose her. But I will always love you, Dom, my Dommie. Always.
I know I destroyed you when I left, when I picked her. I just caused you more pain, more trouble, more hurt than you needed. So I’ll understand if you rip this up, like I ripped up your heart, if you burn this along with all your memories of me. If you believed me when I said ‘it’s over,” then you probably won’t get this far. This letter will already be in the fire, the edges of it curling as it burns. You standing over it, cursing my name for even trying.
I don’t want to give up though, Dom. I want to be with you. I don’t want things to stay this way. I don’t want to wave my arms, don’t want to surrender. I don’t want to give you up.
Even if I don’t hear from you, we’re sure to see each other again. We have to. I’ll still love you, but I’ll keep quiet, make you think I’ve moved on again, even if I haven’t.
But I’ll never give up my love for you, Dom. It will never leave me. My love for you won’t surrender, never give up.
Fuck, I’m rambling now. My love is a tangible thing, Dom. It’s alive. It’s telling me right now to call you instead of sending you this nonsensical letter. Please know, Dom, that I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you, but I’ll stay away, if that’s what you wish, loving you as you’ve loved me all these years.
I love you,
Billy.
Dom stared at the letter in his hand. He watched as his tears fell onto the paper, smearing the ink of Billy’s hasty handwriting. Normally, he had wonderful handwriting, but Dom could tell, just from the way the letters looped, that Billy had been full of emotion when he’d written it. He didn’t throw the letter in the fire, he didn’t rip it up. Instead he reached for the phone and dialed an almost forgotten cell phone number.
“Billy?” he whispered.
“Dom? You...you called. I thought you’d hate me.” Billy wiped back a tear.
“I never hated you, Billy. I loved you.” Dom sighed as he fought back his tears. “I do love you.”
Billy broke down and sobbed into the phone. “I love you, Dom. I love you so much.”
Dom smiled. Through the paper-thin walls of his Hawaiian apartment, he heard the start of a new song. He started to curse his accommodations when he listened, actually listened to the lyrics. “Billy. Billy, love, did...did you have the radio on in the car?”
Billy nodded before he remembered Dom couldn’t see him. “Yeah, I did actually.”
“Did you happen to hear that Dido song?”
Billy laughed in spite of himself. “Yes, I did, Dommie. I heard and I started to cry. It spoke to me and I had to do something. I had to try. I couldn’t go down with ‘that ship,’ Dom. I couldn’t surrender.”
“I’m glad you didn’t, Billy.” Dom sat down on the couch, still holding the letter in his hand. “So what happens now? What do we do?”
“For starters, love, you can open the door.”
Dom looked curiously at the door for a moment before standing up and walking towards it. He opened it to find Billy standing there, his cell phone clutched to his ear, tears trailing down his face. “What are you doing here?” Dom breathed.
“I’ve been sitting outside hoping you’d call. “I had to try, Dom, I had to hope and trust and believe you’d---”
“Billy,” Dom muttered as he interrupted Billy and pulled him into his arms.
“No white flag, Dom. No white flag,” Billy whispered as he buried his face in Dom’s neck.
Dom pulled back and caught Billy’s mouth with his just as the song next door ended and a new one began. Dom smiled as he heard the first line of the new song. “You take my breath away, Billy.”
“Thank God for the radio,” Billy said as he pulled Dom back to him.
And they never surrendered.
Rating: R (language)
Pairing: Monaboyd
Disclaimer: Don't own them or the songs
Summary: Regrats abound, but never he never surrendered
Author's Note: This is for
booshgal33's monaboyd Angst challenge. Using the song "White Flag" Hope it works.And thanks to my ever abused beta
aire_blairDom,
Christ, if this isn’t a hard letter to write. I sit here, alone in my flat, thinking of you. Alone you wonder. How am I alone when I have a great girl like Ali? She left me, Dom.
I was in the car, driving home when it hit me. I still love you. Probably shouldn’t or even say it, but it’s true. I. Love. You. Even if I sat here, wrote this, and never said it out loud, I’d still feel that way, so why pretend anymore? I came home in tears, with my love for you all over my face and she left. She knew and I knew.
I’m not trying to ruin your life, make it harder than it is. I know things are going pretty good for you now. I’m not even trying to bring us back to what we once were.
I’m willing to stay here, in Scotland, deal with my choice, my decision. I chose her. But I will always love you, Dom, my Dommie. Always.
I know I destroyed you when I left, when I picked her. I just caused you more pain, more trouble, more hurt than you needed. So I’ll understand if you rip this up, like I ripped up your heart, if you burn this along with all your memories of me. If you believed me when I said ‘it’s over,” then you probably won’t get this far. This letter will already be in the fire, the edges of it curling as it burns. You standing over it, cursing my name for even trying.
I don’t want to give up though, Dom. I want to be with you. I don’t want things to stay this way. I don’t want to wave my arms, don’t want to surrender. I don’t want to give you up.
Even if I don’t hear from you, we’re sure to see each other again. We have to. I’ll still love you, but I’ll keep quiet, make you think I’ve moved on again, even if I haven’t.
But I’ll never give up my love for you, Dom. It will never leave me. My love for you won’t surrender, never give up.
Fuck, I’m rambling now. My love is a tangible thing, Dom. It’s alive. It’s telling me right now to call you instead of sending you this nonsensical letter. Please know, Dom, that I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you, but I’ll stay away, if that’s what you wish, loving you as you’ve loved me all these years.
I love you,
Billy.
Dom stared at the letter in his hand. He watched as his tears fell onto the paper, smearing the ink of Billy’s hasty handwriting. Normally, he had wonderful handwriting, but Dom could tell, just from the way the letters looped, that Billy had been full of emotion when he’d written it. He didn’t throw the letter in the fire, he didn’t rip it up. Instead he reached for the phone and dialed an almost forgotten cell phone number.
“Billy?” he whispered.
“Dom? You...you called. I thought you’d hate me.” Billy wiped back a tear.
“I never hated you, Billy. I loved you.” Dom sighed as he fought back his tears. “I do love you.”
Billy broke down and sobbed into the phone. “I love you, Dom. I love you so much.”
Dom smiled. Through the paper-thin walls of his Hawaiian apartment, he heard the start of a new song. He started to curse his accommodations when he listened, actually listened to the lyrics. “Billy. Billy, love, did...did you have the radio on in the car?”
Billy nodded before he remembered Dom couldn’t see him. “Yeah, I did actually.”
“Did you happen to hear that Dido song?”
Billy laughed in spite of himself. “Yes, I did, Dommie. I heard and I started to cry. It spoke to me and I had to do something. I had to try. I couldn’t go down with ‘that ship,’ Dom. I couldn’t surrender.”
“I’m glad you didn’t, Billy.” Dom sat down on the couch, still holding the letter in his hand. “So what happens now? What do we do?”
“For starters, love, you can open the door.”
Dom looked curiously at the door for a moment before standing up and walking towards it. He opened it to find Billy standing there, his cell phone clutched to his ear, tears trailing down his face. “What are you doing here?” Dom breathed.
“I’ve been sitting outside hoping you’d call. “I had to try, Dom, I had to hope and trust and believe you’d---”
“Billy,” Dom muttered as he interrupted Billy and pulled him into his arms.
“No white flag, Dom. No white flag,” Billy whispered as he buried his face in Dom’s neck.
Dom pulled back and caught Billy’s mouth with his just as the song next door ended and a new one began. Dom smiled as he heard the first line of the new song. “You take my breath away, Billy.”
“Thank God for the radio,” Billy said as he pulled Dom back to him.
And they never surrendered.
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that was just so cute... and so sad.. and then so happy!
great job!
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Wanna know a secret? I'm kinda iffy about this challenge, because everything's been so angsty. And, I love happy endings. But, you've done both here: angsty and happy ending!
Yay! *hugs*
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Loved it, especially the end. I'm a total sucker for calling-from-the-other-side-of-the-door endings, what can I say?
*loves and offers cookies*
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That's all I can say.
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thank you!!!
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Yeah, ok...uh-huh..::sticks tongue out::
LOVE YOU!!!
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Thank you!!
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LOL..i didn't start out with that ending but I had to have BillyDOm ttime...
thanks for reading and the cookies!!
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Happy to hear it! Thanks!
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That's all?! Well, that'll do I suppose
THank you!!!!!!
::squees::
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Here's the larger pic. I forgot who took it but she posted em all on the bboyd community I think....
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