There Goes The Fear 2/2

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Title: There Goes The Fear 2/2
Pairings: Monaboyd
Rating: NC-17 WHEEEEE!!!!!
Warning: Sex goodness.
Summary: Billy and Dom have been together for awhile..and things WERE falling apart. Now they are sexin it up, big.
Disclaimer: Not mine. Not at all.
Feedback: Yes Please.
Author's Note: I wrote this in one sitting tonight. Much thanks to magicmint Who was my cheerleader, and my source of much inspiration! MWAH!! Also, flashbacks to the past are in italics.





The sunlight woke me up. Hmmm. That's odd. Im on the sofa.
A tuft of hair is tickling my nose. Dom is on the sofa too. We must have fallen asleep. I could feel warmth oozing off of him..his breath hot against my cheek. My heart jumped no matter how many times I saw him...
What happened last night?
Talking and crying. That's what.


"Its hard, being apart."
"I know Dom..but..we haven't just started going out, we've been apart nearly our entire relationship."
"I know, but..we used to have interviews, award shows, premieres, that forced us together. We don't have that anymore."
"You are right..that just means we will have to try harder at seeing each other. No excuses."
"Do you still love me?"
"Oh Dom. Of course I do. You know I do." Billy nuzzled against Doms neck.
"I need to hear you say it." Dom whispered.
Billy pulled Doms face away from his, stared him in the eye. "I love you, Dom. I love you. I love you."
Doms face crumpled, he looked near tears again, but this time the tears didn't come.
"I love you too, Billy." Dom pressed his body on Billy more, and shuddered. He wrapped his long fingers into Billy's hair. "Sometimes I need to hear you say it."
"Sometimes I need to hear you say it as well." Billy replied.



I lifted Dom off of me and onto the couch as quickly and smoothly as I could. He groaned at the movement, but snuggled up against the pillow anyway. My stomach roared with hunger. We never got around to eating last night. We had just talked until we fell asleep.
"Please don't ever leave me, Dom."
I couldn't help but blush at my vulnerability. Begging Dom to be with me. Low, Billy. But..once I felt his breath on mine, I knew. That's where I want to be the rest of my life. Even if I go months without seeing him. It's worth it. I needed him too much.
I washed out the coffee pot, stomach grumbling. A few minutes later, I had a good breakfast going. Bacon and Eggs cooking. Porridge on the back burner. That was for me, Dom always said it tasted like boiled cardboard. On the other burner was a grilled cheese sandwich, for Dom. I don't understand the appeal of just cheese and bread, but..Dom loved them.
"What am I trying to do here? Win him over with food?" I spoke out loud.
I jumped as I felt hands sneak around my waist. "Its working." Warmth behind my ear. I leaned back into Dom, wanting to feel as much of him against me as I could. His body was still warm from sleep, and it had been so long since we had hugged this way....I felt Dom's lips press against the back of my neck, and I shivered.
"Im glad we talked last night, Billy.You ok?" He asked.
I turned around and wrapped my arms around him. "Yes..I am."


I had just stepped out of the bathroom, hair still wet from my shower. The apartment was so quiet, I thought Dom must have fallen asleep somewhere. I found him in the kitchen, washing off our plates from breakfast. He was shirtless, with jeans slung low on his hips. I cleared my throat. He turned to look at me, but I couldn't see his face. Just those hipbones, pointed at me and the line of hair that stopped at his belly button. I raised my eyes to meet his. No smile, just..hunger. He nodded his head back, beckoning me over. I closed the distance between us, and gave him a soft kiss on the corner of his mouth. A soft sigh left Dom's throat and his hand slipped over my rear, giving a gentle squeeze. He licked at my lips, wanting more, and I deepened the kiss. He knew I wouldn't be able to resist him.
"We shouldn't do this here," I murmured softly against his mouth, and Dom slowly pulled back.
"Right." He said, taking my hand. He pulled be down the hallway and towards the bedroom. Desire was sweeping through me, and weakened my knees. I was glad to have the support of him holding me up. I couldn't stop looking at his bare shoulders, and how long it had been since I had touched them, kissed them.
"You smell wonderful." Dom said, jerking me out of my thoughts.
"New shampoo." I replied, without thinking.
We stopped next to the bed. Our faces were close, almost touching, warm breath mingling as we both stood with closed eyes, slowly growing bolder in our contact.
"Where do you want me to touch you?" I whispered..didn't have the power to speak louder.
Dom looked at me, his gaze turning blatantly sexual.
"Here?" My fingers brushed roughly over his flushed skin and touched the wild beating pulse at the base of his throat. Dom arched his neck to the side and let out what I've always called a purr.
"Here?" I asked. My hand dropped down to trace a tiny circle with my fingertip over one nipple, then the other, repeating the action and being rewarded with a soft gasp from Dom.
"Or maybe..." My hand traced lightly down his chest, down his tummy, then lower. I could feel him quivering. I unbuttoned his jeans, and they dropped to his ankles. Of course, no pants. His cock sprang up. "Maybe this is where you want to be touched..right here." My hand slipped between Dom's thighs, fingers caressing the sensitive spot that always made him crumble.
"Yeah, I think you've got the right idea." Dom choked out, his hips arching against my touch, his cock aching to be touched.
Smiling against the skin of Dom's throat, I removed my hand slowly and grasped his shaft, pumping him slowly, once, twice, and I think I saw his eyes roll back into the back of his head. His expression the true image of desire.
Dom was aware he was the vulnerable one here, being the only one undressed. He made a small whimper, and grasped at my pants. I let go of him, only long enough for him to undress me. We brushed up against each other, Dom let out a groan that forced me to seek out his mouth with a deep kiss. Our tongues fought for domination and our hands touched each other shyly, as if it were the first time.
"What do you want?" I murmured.."I want to give you want you want."
Before I could say anything else, Dom pushed me down on the bed. He raised me up so I was sitting, and he knelt down before me. Unable to believe what was transpiring, totally lost in the moment and overtaken by the hot desire spiraling up from my belly, I groaned. I looked at Dom who was grinning at me in a wicked way. He stroked his fingers lightly up the insides of my thighs, making them quiver ever so slightly. He leaned forward, his spiky hair tickling me as he licked a slow path from the base of my cock to the tip. My hair stood on end, and I fought to keep my feet on the floor. Another groan escaped my mouth. Dom gave me a searching look, eyes almost black as he deep throated me with agonizing slowness. I couldn't stop my hands from clenching those lovely shoulders I had wanted to touch so badly. My head flew back, eyes closed, ragged breaths escaping my parted lips. All my energy was focused on the silky tongue sliding over my cock.
I want to fuck that beautiful mouth; I want to savage it, worship it. Every nerve in my body screamed for release.
"Oh God. Oh..god....yessssss.." I couldn't stop myself. I couldn't breath, with Dom's mouth working magic on me. I could feel my scrotum start to tighten, and tried to warn him.
"Dom--stop! Dom, Im going to---ohhhhhhh." In my daze, I expected Doms head to jerk away, but it stayed on me, and I felt his tongue still wrapped around my now trembling dick.
My vision wavered as I saw him licking me still.
"Billy, what I want.." Doms voice was husky. "Is everything. I want you to give me everything."
In a fluid motion, Dom rose from his knees, and grasping my face between his hands, leaning in and kissing me. I could taste myself on his lips, which made my cock stir as I returned the kiss. Dom stroked his fingers down my sweaty back, and I leaned towards him more, not wanting to break contact. Dom was the one who finally pulled away.
"I want lots of things," He said in a growl, kissing me one last time. The thing he wanted seemed obvious to me. "I want you fucking naked, I want your skin on mine, I want your hands and mouth, your cock..I want them all over me."
I whimpered. A grown man. Whimpering. I launched my mouth on his neck, attacking his collarbone.
"You taste salty." I growled into his ear.
Dom shuddered. "I can't help it. I've been sweating."
"I love the way you taste."
His dark eyes searched my face.
"Do you want me?" I asked.
"More than I ever need to breathe again." Dom said deeply.
"Then make me yours." I said.
"You are mine, nobody else's." Dom replied, kissed along my neck.
I pulled away. "That's not what I mean, Dom. I want you to make me yours."
"You ARE mine, Billy. You'll never belong to anyone else again." Dom went to kiss me again but I grabbed his face and held it still in front of mine. He looked startled, and his eyes flashed before mine.
"You aren't fucking listening, Dom. I want you to fuck me."


"Whoa!"
"What is it??"
"What the hell was that?"
"What was what?"
"You just put your finger in my arse!"
"Yeah? SO?"
"Dom. Let me explain something to you here. I will lick, finger, and fuck your arse all day. But...Im not keen on anything going near mine."
"But, you are gay, Billy."
"Doesn't mean I want your fingers up my arse."
Dom pulled away. Billy knew then he had hurt his feelings. He didn't mean to..he just..had certain views about these things.
"Im just..confused, I guess Billy. I've never stopped you from doing anything to me before."
"Im sorry Dom, I just...cant. Wont..do that. I hope you understand. Its just not my thing."
"You wouldn't know! I bet its your thing, I could show you."
Billy went on the defensive. "No one's ever taken me yet, Dom. What makes you think you're the one?"
Doms face fell, and Billy knew he had gone too far. "Im sorry."
"Don't be sorry. I just..didn't know you felt that way."
"It doesn't change anything. We can still..ya know.." Billy stroked his hand down Doms chest, hoping to warm him over.
"I know."
"I love you, Dom."
"I know you do."

"Billy.." Dom had all but ran from the bed. "You don't know what you are saying."
"I bloody well DO."
"Well, what has changed your mind, this is something you have always been..against. I don't want you to resent me for doing something you just think you want to do." Dom sat awkwardly on the edge of the bed. I kneeled beside him.
"Dom.."
"No one has ever taken me yet, Dom. What makes you think you are the one?" Doms eyes met mine, and his voice was harsh.
I closed my eyes, and searched myself for strength.
"You are the one, Dom. Because I've never loved anyone the way I love you. Because I've never trusted anyone the way I trust you." I wasn't sure how much longer I could wait. The ache between my legs was growing fast.
Dom spoke, his voice barely a whisper, he said, "Cause you've never needed anyone else the way you need me."
"That's right. Now..please. Fuck me."
Dom eyed me for a moment. "You and your goddamned sexy smart mouth," he growled softly, tracing my lips with his tongue before deepening the kiss. "Yeah. On your knees, bitch," he playfully bit at my lips and laughed out loud.

Kneeling on the bed directly behind me, I felt Doms hands on my arse. His hands. Doms hands. He had never done this before. Desire ran through me like wildfire. The moment that Dom's tongue touched my skin, I surged forward, nearly knocking myself over. Dom reached out to steady me, but his hands didn't linger on my hips long. They reached around to grab the hardening length between my hips. Doms tongue again. I groaned. Every time his tongue plunged, his hands stroked me hard and fast. Hadn't I just come a few minutes ago?? Was it possible I was going to come again, so soon? Dom's tongue twisted itself, and I gasped, the almost liquid heat too overwhelming for my attempt at control. "Um—Oh, fuck, Dom, I'm going to come!"
But Dom only stroked harder, deeper, and faster with his tongue, and with his hands. The combination was too much for me. With a sound that was nearly pain, I came again, spilling onto Dom's hands.
The aftershocks were still wracking me when I felt one of Doms fingers slip inside me. Groan. Just as I was getting used to that, I felt him stretch me a little more by adding another finger. Groan. By the third finger, I barely minded the intrusion. Each time he thrust his hand, my balls chanted nownownownownownow. I heard and felt Dom reach for something beside the bed. I heard a bottle snap open.
"Wait." I said.
Dom froze. "Its okay, we don't have to do it." He said automatically.
"Wanker, No. I just--------wanted to roll over." I looked up at Dom. His eyes blazed again.
"Are you sure?"
"Positive." I reached up and kissed him roughly.
Suddenly Dom was touching himself, unconcerned of my presence. He stroked the underside of his shaft, making a fist and allowing his cock to slide in between his fingers, coating it in lube.
"You are incredible," he said softly, running his fingers through my hair. He kissed his way down to my nipples, catching one in his teeth. He stopped me mid-gasp with another rough kiss, breathing softly, "Tell me."
"Tell you what?" I whispered.
"Tell me," Dom's voice was husky with passion and need, making my heart skip. "Tell me you want it. You need it."
"OohmygodDom." My back arched off the bed. "Pleasepleaseplease Dom, I want you to fuck me. I need it more than anything."
Dom gave himself another yank, and stuck a wet finger inside me one more time, then raised my legs up, so my knee's were flat against my chest. A moment of hesitation spread before his face.
"Tell me if I hurt you." His breath was ragged. He entered me slowly, it hurt, but it was nothing I couldn't handle. Why had I been so afraid of this for so long? With a sigh of what could have been relief, I relaxed. As many times as I had been behind, or over Dom..this wasn't the same. It wasn't the same. I knew I was tight around him, so tight that he wanted to just pound...but he was gentle, sliding gently with his hips. He leaned over and rested his chest against mine once he was fully inside me.
"Okay?" he gasped, his eyes shining, with a hand stroking down my face.
I nodded, and moved my hips experimentally. A shock ran through me, and obviously ran through Dom as well, because he arched away from me. It felt...good. Fucking..good.
"I can't believe it. I'm actually inside you," he whispered, his voice was shaking. That combined with feeling this amazing sense of...fullness. I had to squeeze my eyes shut, afraid I would cry. It wasn't just love or lust. It was a sense of belonging to someone. A sense of rightness.
"I love you Dom." I said, breathlessly.
"Fuck! I love you too, Billy." Dom's head rolled around on his shoulders, and he let out a low groan. "Billy..if I don't.."
"Do it Dom, fuck me." I braced myself for pain, but pain didn't come. I moved my hips again and Dom groaned.
Dom couldn't hold back any longer. He grasped my hips and pumped forcefully, driven on by my soft sounds of encouragement. The sight of Dom's flushed face and parted lips was nearly my undoing. I lifted my arms and flattened them against the headboard, pushing myself against Dom. His hips continued their fast pace against me.
"Oh. My. God. Ohhhh fuuuuck..." Dom exploded, filling me with warmth. He collapsed on top of my cock, the friction giving me just what I needed for release. Dom breathed heavily, dropping tender kisses on my skin. "I hope I didn't hurt you," he panted, and I shook my head no. Panting, Dom dropped to the bed beside me, eyes closed as he recovered his breath. Not wanting to break contact, I trailed my fingers lightly on his hip, and thigh in a circled pattern. Dom rolled over so that he was laying over me, resting his head on my shoulder, fingers caressing my cheek my heart finally steadied.
"I love you, Billy." He kissed me softly on the cheek, before cuddling in. After a few minutes his breath slowed, and I knew he was asleep.


"Mmmmm".
My eyes snapped open. Dom's face was in my chest.
"Could you be anymore like a puppy?" I asked affectionately. He shook his head without answering. I felt him nipping at my chest hairs.
"Tickles."
"Dom. I wanna ask you something." My voice wavered. Fuck.
"What's wrong?" Dom sat up instantly.
"Nothings wrong, you git. I just..want to ask you something."
"Okay..."
"I want to stay here for awhile. In LA...do..you think that would be ok?"
A slow smile spread across Dom's face. "But you hate LA."
"Im starting to not..hate it as much." I grinned.
"What about Scotland?" Dom asked.
"It will still be there when I get back."
"Yeah...I think Id like it if you stayed." Dom did what I can only describe as cooing, and nuzzled closer to me than I thought was possible, and kissed my collarbone."Id love it."
Yeah...LA isn't so bad after all.